My beautiful wee micro preemie Joshua James Podolan

I had a difficult pregnancy with Joshua due to a sub chorionic haematoma that caused me to bleed heavily from week 11 to when he was born. Joshy was tiny but mighty, he was very determined to overcome the haematoma, but unfortunately it (the clot) was just too big and on the evening of 19 Jan 2025 Joshy became quite distressed in utero and my medical team recommended emergency c section. Joshy showed his sheer determination, and despite being only 462 grams held on in NiCU for 3 days. On the 22nd Jan, the medical team informed us in there clincal words that went over my head- he was just too tiny and had succumbed to sepsis and pulmonary hypotension and we made the heartbreaking decision to give him a cuddle and say our final goodbyes. We never received a Bears of Hope bear, so some months after our loss, I bought a bear for myself, which my 5 year old, Stephen then claimed haha! Stephen sleeps with the bear every night and wishes Joshua was here as much as we do. I do give the bear a cuddle sometimes too. Thank you bears of hope for all that you do xx